Day at home. Worst thing ever! Can only think of how long I’ve got to wait till I can test! 4dpo and it’s killing!!! AND I’ve got to wait even longer as I have a long cycle, 16 days from ovulation to AF due day. Ugh!! Wish there was a way of knowing. A little sign or symptom. But dreading seeing that negative test. That one single little line that kicks you in the chest and stares at you, mocking you, dashing all hope and having to wait until you can try again. I really want

To wait until I’m a few days late, so it’s more likely to be positive. But with this messed up cycle (ovulation delayed by 3 weeks) I can bet my ass my period will be late just to mess with me!! There is no easy way to TTC. I tilt my hat to all the couples that have been trying for months and years. After 7 months and 1 miscarriage, I’m driving myself nuts. I know good things come to those who wait, but WOW does it have to be so literal!! A friend has just announced her third pregnancy, another friend her third too. And I’m just sat here. With a gorgeous 8 year old I admit, so I’m

Not trying for my first like some, and can only imagine the stress and heartache you must feel. I feel selfish for wanting a second so badly when there are couples trying so desperately for their first. But I’m finally with an amazing man, a fantastic father, and I’m 30 this year. I’m ready. I want it. My partner wants it. Our parents want it. My daughter wants it. We are good parents. We are stable. So come on universe, come on higher powers, PLEASE give us this gift. We deserve it. We’ve earned it. We aren’t bad people. PLEASE. Baby dust to every one of you. No matter how long you’ve been trying. I pray this is our year.