So I know my body very well right?! With my first son I knew I was pregnant shortly after I had sex I just was for sure sure. I took a test right at 3 weeks and it came back positive, well slightly faint but definitely there. I tested two more days in a row and then made I’m appointment with the Dr. I was for sure pregnant 🤰🏼. My son was born July 2016. Me and his father separated when my son was 2 months. I moved back to my home state where I rekindled someone from the past and it was magic. He more that accepted my son and just about took on full responsibility when his father wouldn’t. Early February 2018 comes along, I found out I was pregnant well actually I was told I was pregnant 😂🤦🏽‍♀️Like how would he know before me. Well he was right I was pregnant again, by a second man and my son was not even 2 yet. I was so shame that I was about to have a second child by a second man and IM STILL LEGALLY MARRIED TO MY SONS FATHER 🤦🏽‍♀️ it’s a long story behind why it was not handled. I stressed about a lot the entire time, to the point where I miscarried. That was the worst experience ever. I went in for a regular check up but my doctor was not in, he never was I had never met him and I was pushing 10weeks. So they go ahead with my regular routine but then she says “Let’s check the heartbeat” of course I say “yes” faster than she finished her sentence lol. Okay so I’m laying there excited and looking at the monitors with her and she’s looking at it funny and then I break the silence and say “why is it not moving?! I know it’s not big but it’s laying at the bottom.” She tries to convince me that I’m not far enough along to hear or see the heartbeat. I called bull! Me and my boyfriend left in silence he knew I was not gnna leave it alone. The next day I went to an ultrasound clinic...they gave my the hard truth. My baby was growing without a heartbeat but in due time my body would reject it and I would miscarry. For some reason I had hope that my baby would somehow grow a heart overnight and everything would be fine right?! No. But my body never rejected it. I had my surgery (DNC) first week of April 2018. Recovery was a B****! My boyfriend was there through it all. Bless his heart bc I know I was something to handle back then. Well hear it is January 2019 and I just found out I was pregnant AGAIN! And again he had feelings about it before I knew. I still found out early (3weeks) but this time around I’m not sure how to feel about it. I’m fearful to say the least. I guess I wanna know about your rainbow baby stories, love stories or anything to make this seem normal.