So we have been trying for 13 months. And while I know this is not a long time compared to others, I can’t even seem to get my body to ovulate. So that’s been a struggle. And as soon as I start getting flustered about all of it....I find out my two best friends, my sister, and now my sister n law is pregnant. This is all within a few months. And with every single person that comes out to say they’re pregnant I fall deeper in a depression. I have prayed and prayed that I wouldn’t feel this way because I want to be genuinely happy for the couples that truly also deserve a baby (some of them have messed up situations I just can’t help but think it’s not fair) but it’s come so far that now my husband is just completely over it....kind of hateful...does not even try to relate or empathize. This guy that is supposed to be my best friend through this all. He is 41 and he has a 14 yr old. He could have a child with me and be happy or not have a child and be happy. So for him to understand the depression that my body just isn’t working for me is almost impossible. I think venting to him and crying to him has been a mistake. Because now it’s just become a problem. And I’m not sure what to do anymore.

I’m also on Clomid this month for the first time and I feel like a crazy person. I feel like I could literally cry at any second every single day.

So sorry for the long post ladies, my heart is just hurting and I don’t know what to do because I can’t even turn to the one I need most