I wrote this letter for the baby we recently lost. I thought it may help others going through this find some comfort.❤

A letter to my angel baby:

They say sometimes you just feel pregnant.

They say sometimes you shouldn't test so early.

Well I did, and there you were. 2 of the faintest pink lines.

As days went on, and I felt more pregnant, those pink lines got darker and stronger.

Something still felt off, they weren't as dark as my first pregnancy.

I try not to stress.

I still quickly get excited and nervous and started thinking of how you'd look.

I told your big sister about you before anyone else.

She hugged and talked to you through my belly. Could you feel her love?

It was almost Christmas and I was going to surprise your daddy and tell him about you.

I wanted to blurt it out as soon as I saw him every day.

But for now, only me, big sissy, and mommy's best friend know.

We could keep our little secret a little longer right?

Everything was ready and written out for daddy and I just have to wrap it.

Fast foward to Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a>.

I woke up feeling funny.

Cramping started.

I smiled thinking maybe you were growing.

I rub my belly. Can you feel me?

And then it happened.

God must have needed you for something far more beautiful than this world could offer.

He took you home, to Heaven.

Could you feel my touch one last time? Did you go listening to my heartbeat?

I was so sad and so hurt because I didn't get to feel you grow, I didn't get to hear your heartbeat or see you on the screen.

But what I did see were those 2 pink lines.

2 pink lines that told me you were in my tummy.

That you were real.

I wanted you so bad, my baby.

Your daddy and big sister did too.

Were you a boy or girl?

Or maybe there was more than 1 of you?

Would you have looked just like mommy like your sister?

Or would you be a spitting image of your daddy?

We won't know until we are together again in Heaven.

But guess what?

I will know you as soon as I see you. You'll welcome me with open arms and I will get to hear you call me mommy for the first time.

I'll get to hear your heartbeat.

I'll get to see your perfect face.

I'll get to see you walking.

Walking on streets of gold!

How amazing that the almighty father gets to raise you!

You're pure perfection and you will never have to endure being hurt or sad in this world.

My angel baby, my heart still aches for you.

It will for as long as I'm living, I'm afraid.

I won't forget you.

I won't stop loving you.

You're watching over us all now eagerly waiting until we are all together.

Until then...laugh, play, be a good little baby and make mommy and daddy proud.

I love you so very much.

Love,

Mommy