Firstly, if anything I say is offensive please tell me and I'm very sorry. I've always been 100% supportive of all LGBT+ people, but I've never understood trans people. I can't understand how someone can identify as a certain gender. I'm a 'cis' female and bi / pan and I've always thought everything would be a lot easier if everyone in the world was pansexual and genderless. But, of course, I completely support trans people so I've always felt a bit guilty for thinking this way. I've thought recently, maybe I'm actually genderless, and that's why I can't understand it. For me personally, I see absolutely no difference between different genders and strongly disagree with gender roles and stereotypes. I don't particularly dislike being female, I don't mind my female body or being intimate with my male SO but I do often fantasize about being my SO being intimate with me (i.e being male). I dress exclusively in jeans and a t-shirt but don't mind wearing dresses when neccesary. I have long hair but would quite like to have very short boy-is hair at some point. I have always preferred being friends with boys and have a much more logical brain than creative (I love maths and physics) but I am also a very emotional person. I recently had a baby and being pregnant and giving birth didn't make my gender dysphoric. I don't feel the need to change my physical sex at all but if I woke up one day as a male I wouldn't be bothered at all. I recently thought to myself, out of nowhere, "it'd be nice to be a man instead". I'm perfectly happy with female pronouns but wouldn't be bothered by male pronouns either. I'm happy to continue to be perceived as a woman forever, although being genderless would maybe be nice too. As a child I wanted to be called Charlie. And online I often choose different names for myself - Taylor, Frankie, Max. I'd quite like to change my name to something gender neutral or boyish but probably wouldn't because my mum wouldn't appreciate it (not because she's anti LGBT+ just because she wants me to keep the name she chose for me). I'm a little scared to bring up this idea with my husband because, although he's completely supportive of LGBT+ people (he used to identify as asexual), he is straight, and I'm worried he might be uncomfortable with the thought that I might identify as male one day. I've also recently had a medical issue relating to my uterus and might have to have it removed one day, so that's made me think quite negatively about my female body, which may be contributing towards this. Can anyone tell me if my feelings make sense? And again I'm really really sorry if my thoughts about trans people are offensive I sincerely don't mean them to be.