Here’s my story;; found out I was pregnant 12/30, most of December I had irregular heavy bleeding.. ever since I found out I was pregnant I started going to my clinic for check ups.. according to them they estimated me being 5w 2d, I told my doctor about my irregular bleeding and not knowing how I ended up pregnant, she checked my cervix and seen it inflamed but no more bleeding.. she had me go in at 6w for an ultrasound to make sure the baby was fine. I went in and they didn’t find no sac, they did bloodwork my HCG was 360, I went in this past Tuesday did more bloodwork and another ultrasound, still no baby to be found, I started bleeding and cramping and went back to the ER my HCG that morning was 254 and by the time I got to the ER it was 224.. they told me my body was getting ready to miscarry.. I still kept mentioning them about my irregular bleeding and how I had a lump come out of my vagina.. they said that had nothing to do with it. Thursday I’m scheduled for one more ultrasound, no baby to be found. Finally until Friday my doctor tells me that my irregular bleeding was me miscarrying my baby. I feel so mad at everyone including myself.. I first ask god why he sent me that precious baby and take it away from me with a blink of an eye.. I feel mad at everyone that surrounds me because all they say is that things happen for a reason.. WHAT REASON?! Or maybe it wasn’t the right time.. WHY WASNT IT?! I feel so angry and so much hate inside of me.. there are so many questions that I have that I will never get an answer to.. Why did God do this to me? What did I do to deserve this? If there was a reason, then what was it? I’m at a point in my life where I want to be left alone, I need time to myself to learn how to love and love myself again.. I try to be strong but seems as everyone arounds me is back to their normal self,, except me. I don’t feel like I have the right amount of support. I may have it but I don’t see it.. I don’t know what to do with myself.. I’m so angry with my husband,, for maybe not understanding how I feel.. I know life moves on, and I’m this is something I will have to carry for the rest of my life.. at the moment, I have organized my priorities; graduate college, find a job, work on my credit.. i just can’t seem to get out of my shell.. I do not plan on having any children soon, not this year and maybe not next year.. this has taken a huge toll on me..