I found out I was pregnant The first week of December, after rounds of clomid that didn’t work, and being told by numerous doctors that my best bet would be to look into <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, me and my husband gave it a break, I signed up for school. But December my period was late, so I tested having little to no hope, cause I’ve peed so many times on these sticks, I already knew the answer. But it turns out that I didn’t. And it was positive, and I was so happy. I went from not allowing myself to have any hope, to being in love all in one day. And as the weeks went by I grew more and more in love. We told just our families over Christmas, (I know, but I was too excited to wait). And then 8 weeks in I was diagnosed with a subchorionic hematoma, and I was bleeding, but they assured me that most people who experience this go on to have healthy pregnancies. I had seen my baby three times before then, I got to see his little heart beatting. I got to take home pictures to put in my baby scrap book I was making. And so when they said it wasn’t a major concern, I was scared cause I was bleeding, but I never thought it would happen. On Tuesday I woke up at 4am with horrible pains and heavy red bleeding, and even then I didn’t put two and two together until I called my doctor and she told me I was miscarrying. And 15 minutes later it happened. It was so fast, and final. And as soon as the office opened, I went in, and she confirmed that my uterus was just empty besides that huge hematoma. And it’s been almost five days, and my bleeding has tapered off, which makes me feel worse honestly, because it’s just over. And I feel so alone in this. I have a husband, and I have his family and mine, but I don’t want any of that. The want to smile and have small talk, play games, laugh. And i just can’t. I don’t know how people get over this, and try again, and be whole. And I know it hasn’t even been a week. But when everyone is smiling around you, it feels like I’m supposed to be there, and I’m just not. Anyways, I’m sorry to all of you who are going through the same thing.