Excessive weight gain..

Feeling really self conscious about how much weight Ive gained.. Before I got pregnant, I was in the middle of a weight loss journey and lifestyle change. I started off around 203lbs and had lost 40lbs. We had been TTC for 3 years. Part of wanting to lose the weight wasn’t just for me but to hopefully help with my fertility in order to get pregnant. I hit 160lbs when I got my BFP! From then on its like the weight just flew back..as of my last appt I was 221lbs (61 lbs gained) and I feel awful..i worked so hard to lose what I had before pregnancy and had intentions to only gain “the recommended amount”..I know a lot of women gain a lot in their first pregnancy but some also hardly gain at all..I wanted so badly to atleast be able to stay under 200lbs..I’m 30+2 and I still have around 10weeks left! I’ll admit that I haven’t been perfect with what I eat but dang..I haven’t been that bad..the good news is that my OB isn’t concerned with my weight and all of my checks have been normal. The baby is healthy and that’s what matters most to me. I guess I’m just looking for other women who have gained a lot. I’m hoping I’m not alone in this😞 I absolutely love this baby and being pregnant. I’ll gladly take the weight I’ve gained as long as I get my little rainbow. My self esteem has just dropped.

UPDATE: responding to comments here to stay anonymous.

•Thank you to those who’ve said not to let it get me down. It’s good to see that I’m not the only one who has gained this much. I fully intend to lose the weight again and keep forgetting that a lot does come off after the baby is born.

• I really appreciate the positive feedback. I really have been trying to eat clean (with the occasional sweet tooth). I’m getting a lot of negative commentary in a separate group that I posted this same thing too..