I wish my baby was back in my arms, there was so much, I didn’t understand half of what was going on. My husband and I had to go pick out his little outfit and let me tell you, it was the hardest thing ever, the ladies working there were looking at my husband and I(we couldn’t stop crying). I don’t want to be doing any of this.

I’m starting to forget how he feels and smells, and I don’t want that. I want to be able to remember. I want to feel his little hands on my face and see his big smile. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I’m going crazy trying to stay strong. My 7 year old told me today that her heart is broken in half, she’s confused on what happened to her baby brother. I didn’t want anyone to tell her but my MIL decided she would talk about it in front of her after we specially told her not to 🙄 I feel so fucking angry all the time more than I do sad. I don’t ever want to go back home(we’ve been staying at his moms)

https://www.gofundme.com/funeral-costs-for-my-beautiful-baby-ivan-sanchez?pc=ot_co_dashboard_a&rcid=f60b1c81668f4a83b9a980794f1a25fc

*Update* To the dumb person saying my child’s death is fake, I hope you never have to go through this and have people say it’s fake. Gets your facts straight if you’re trying to call people out. I have 4 kids, I don’t have a Facebook, my husband does and certain posts are only friends and not to the public. Not once in my post did I ask anyone for me so fuck off! Yes I have the GoFundMe listed but never asked for money and wasn’t expecting any from people I don’t know I don’t know what I was thinking when I added it but whether way it’s none of your business why I posted it. & if you need more validation that my son did pass here’s the obituary from the funeral home & if for some reason your cold ass heart doesn’t believe it you can google Trevino funeral home in San Antonio and look for obituary. How fucking dare you!!!!