I'm so mentally tired. I mc on halloween and I have been really laid back from ttc because I was still hurt. But this month my period is 6 days late and it reignited my ttc. I keep taking pregnancy tests thinking I see a line. I take pictures, move in different lights, hold them to the sunlight, damn near hang upside down. But deep down I know they are all negitive. I feel like it was such a sick joke to let me fall pregnant then take it away 3 months later. Not to mention I'm spiteful when I see women get their rainbow and it sickens me that I'm that way. Dont get me wrong I'm happy for them but sad for me. This is a journey I never imagined would be so hard. 😞😔