I’m hoping to hear some encouraging words from you guys. I went in on Friday for an ultrasound and was really excited to learn the sex of the baby. Instead, I learned that my baby is not going to make it. I was diagnosed with a very large cystic hydroma. I’m devastated. I’ve never felt so sad and helpless. I cried until I my eyes were swollen shut. My husband cried, which was terrible to hear. I know this isn’t our fault, but I made a decision early on because I simply wanted to get pregnant. It took two years with my son and I didn’t want to wait.

I have multiple sclerosis and was on a drug called tysabri. This drug can cause major birth defects and miscarriages so we waited 90 days with my son for the drug to wash out of my system. With this baby we didn’t wait because my neurologist said there was more research that doesn’t require the wash out period. At the time my husband was concerned but I charge ahead and I can’t help but think this is tied to the drug I was taking. We don’t have any miscarriages or birth defects on my husband side of the family or mine. My mom had her last at 38 and my aunt had her last baby at 41. I’m 37. I don’t

understand.

I’ve seen other stories in this forum about miscarriages and I never really understood what that would feel like, now I just feel destroyed. I’m sorry to all of you ladies that have gone through this experience. We told my 3 year that his sister has a big boo boo that only God can fix and that she’s going to live in heaven.

Still processing everything and tying to understand.