Okay so this is a weird thing for me bc I dont normally ask for advice... but here it goes.

I have had 2 miscarriages in 2 years. These last two months I have just felt weird. Tired all the time, always hungry, and queasy. I am 4 days late for January. In november I had a really bad period that was heavier than ever and lasted about 7 days. 9 days later I had what seemed like another period that was pretty light and was only 4-5 days. I'm trying to decide if I should test or not. I have them in my bathroom and all I can do is stare at them I cant seem to bring myself to take it bc what if it's just my mind tricking me? What should I do ladies?