I'm just in my feels tonight.

Mei

So this last October, 2018 we found out we were pregnant on the 31st. Then on the 2nd I experienced a miscarriage I was only a month along. I know some people don't think of the baby as being alive at that point but to me and my fiance they were. I just turned 21 in December and I'm still not fully over the whole situation but to Cope me and my fiance made a memorial bear with their name on it. I still can't really talk about baby stuff but I have a pregnant friend who's due in March and I want tobe supportive. I get major depression now thinking I failed myself, my baby, and my future husband. He's been soo much support but I feel undeserving of such a wonderful man right now.

I do have a great support system my mother is a key factor other then my fiance because she has been through this same situation. I know it's a common thing and it happens but It just hurts.... A lot.

I just want to say I'm sorry to every woman who has experienced a miscarriage. I hope you have found peace and I hope to find it too

because I know I'm not alone in this. 💟💟💟💟

(P. S. We haven't given up hope we are ttc again so prayers are much appreciated. 💗💗💗)