Nightmares getting to me...

So I am 5DPO. I have an appointment tomorrow with my GYN because despite normal day 3 labs, diligent cycle tracking and a ton of sex, we have failed to conceive after many months. My husband has borderline morphology but extremely high count and good motility, so nobody is too worried about him. I dreamed last night that I walked into the office, and the waiting room was filled with all my pregnant acquaintances from social media, and real life. All the women in the "mommy club" at varying stages of gestation. And they started heckling and mocking me. Laughing and telling me to "get out! You don't belong here! You will never be one of us." I always feel awkward at my gyn because I feel the office only really caters to pregnant women. When I first called a year ago to establish care, they immediately assumed I was pregnant. When I tried to make a follow up appointment this time, they were initially reluctant because they save "frequent visits" for pregnant women, not those of us struggling. I feel like I often get told to keep trying and "come back when you are successful." I really like my doctor, but I am really having a hard time emotionally. I wish they had separate appointment times and waiting room for those of us TTC. Maybe seeing a RE early is worth the costs. None of the women there are already sporting baby bumps.