So I've had this friend for a long time, and we'd always joke around. We never really discussed hard things or things seriously affecting our lives EVER. I've known her almost 6 years and we're both still pretty clueless about each others personal lives. Well, long story short I ended up kinda crushing on her... from 2016-now. I just kind of buried my feelings, especially coming from a Christian school and family where that's NOT acceptable, at least in my situation. I also tried to push aside my interest in her because I had no damn clue if she was even into girls and I highly doubted it.

Anyway back on topic. My friends and I always joked how she was gay, she fit the stereotype which is why we said it. Recently she started dropping hints at something more than just a joke. To me, and me only. I started asking her about it if she was serious or not. She dodged the questions, gave me cryptic answers, and left me confused. This went on for WEEKS and all those buried feelings came back up. I finally made her an offer. As I said before we don't know much about each other and 99% of our friendship is jokes and references. I told her if she told me 100% honestly if she was into girls or not, and if she was she could ask me ANY question that I'd have to respond honestly to. If she wasn't she could either ask me any question, again having to answer honestly, in exchange for me asking her another question that she'd have to answer honestly, OR we just drop the whole thing and no more questions were asked. At this point I was so confused I just wanted it to end.

Neither of us are really into gossip or secrets that much (makes life harder and some shit I just don't want to know) so I assumed she'd decline and this would go on for months until I drove her insane. To my surprise she accepted. She told me she was actually conflicted about it, and didn't know if she was or not, and I wasn't expecting that. At. All. At this point I just assumed she was messing with me so this really took me off guard. It wasn't a definite yes I'm into girls, let alone into me, but its better than a no. She ended up asking me the same thing, which caught me off guard again. Truthfully, I told her I was in a similar scenario and I think that really just clicked something.

After that, today we spent more time talking to each other than we had in around a year. It felt so nice and I feel like today we actually established a real, true friendship. Sure it's just been one day but when she went to bed she said she'd plan on spending the day with me tomorrow, which never has happened. We normally just pass a few texts throughout the day, memes n shit, and that's about all. Today I spent around 1/2 the day texting her and playing games with her. I always called her my best friend but now it really seems true. I feel like I can truly trust her now. She shared a lot about her life today, and it just felt like the first time I really got to know her.

Idk I'm just so happy, thanks for reading if you made it this far. Sorry you had to endure my cheesy writing. Maybe I'm overthinking things, but I'm genuinely happy for once lol. Just thought I'd share :)

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