HEARTBROKEN💔

After my miscarriage in September it has been so depressing. I found out I was pregnant in August, 6 weeks pregnant. I was so excited, my fiancé was so excited, and my family was so happy. We paid in advance out of pocket to see ultrasounds of the baby, hear the babies heartbeat, and just keep up with everything. At my first appointment I had just turned 8 weeks. They told me that they couldn’t see the baby because I had a uterus that was tilted, and it would be harder to see the baby, but not to worry they would just have to do vaginal ultrasound, and I should come back in two weeks to they can see the baby more clear. So I waited.... I did have an appointment with my OB but it wasn’t until September 13, and I didn’t want to wait that long. So I had an appointment September 4 with my out of pocket ultrasound tech. That same day I was at work and I stood up from my chair, and I felt warm blood just drop as if I started my period. I ran to the bathroom and it was a clot of blood. I rushed to the emergency room, and they told me everything was fine, she said I was actually possibly pregnant with twins, but they were measuring at 5 weeks so they couldn’t detect a heartbeat, but she said everything was fine just go home and elevate my feet, and rest. That same night I experienced a miscarriage. It was the most heartbreaking things I have ever been through. It even put a strain on my relationship cause I pushed my fiancé away. I felt like I needed to deal with my pain alone, and nobody could understand what I physically, or emotionally felt. Now we’re back to trying! But I haven’t forgotten about my little angels. To anyone going through something. I’m praying for you. Don’t give up. 🧡💛