AF was due yesterday

I’m sitting here wondering if I should take a test tmrw! I have so many emotions right now... my last test I took was Saturday it was negative. I had what I thought might be IB on Wednesday (9 DPO) and Friday (11 DPO) last week..... ovulation confirmed around 12/31-1/1 I already have an almost 9 year old and my SO and I have been together for 4 years and ready to start our family. Part of me wants to take a test to see if I am but then part of me doesn’t want the disappointment if it’s negative ....Thoughts, prayers or advice welcome!!