so, this is gonna be kinda long, and tmi and ew😭I just need advice or whatever,

and I know that, the only way to know for sure that I have any kinda disease is to go get tested etc, but that’s just ugh.

Im 17, also btw,

so last year in November, I was just kinda in a bad place. Sad, lonely, and was going through it ig. And my dumb ass decided to “get out of it” and in the heat of the moment, got with this guy. And honestly, I regretted it and hated myself for it a lot after. I just idk. I’m here because I haven’t really told any of my friends and sigh yeah.

So after that in November, I realized like a week before Christmas, that my hemroids problem started back, so I was like oh? Okay. Then I realized that the area opposite was red and another button popped up and it was a red, pill shaped little thing and really fucking painful, but it went away that same day and ig blood came out of it. after my pee was hot/burning and I had chills, so I went to the docters, and they told me I had a clinical infection and gave me antibiotics. (Which I didn’t get until in jan) anyways after the docters visit, I realized my throat was sore for a while, it still is, my mother told me my throat looks infected and horrible (and it’s jan 16th rn, my last day on the antibiotics) and my throat is still sore. Kinda. My hemroids also went away in the first week of Jan, but the area between my dick and anus has been red and sensitive. And it looks like I got cut, twice? What scared me was that there was little tiny white dots along the lines of the cut scattered. But it was painless. I realized between my ass on both sides were red and looked like it was cut too, (So I honestly think it’s because I wear tight underwear and have been very active, but Idk)😭 I stopped wearing tight stuff, but it’s still sensitive down there. So while I was being paranoid, i messaged the guy and asked him if he had anything and he sent me a test he took the day before we hooked up and he was clean for any stds. And after a while again 💀I called him again crying cuz I thought he gave me herpes or something and he reassured me that he got tested for hiv etc, that he’s clean and that his current partner is healthy and good also, that I should go get tested to calm my nerves and to keep him updated on how I’m going and I kinda believe him.. but I’m over here like, then wtf is going on with my body 😭I couldn’t handle it anymore, being paranoid and scared I told my parents that I did it with a girl, and my dad agreed to carry me to get tested, if the antibiotics don’t work. My mum was kinda mad at first but uh sigh. The one friend I spoke to also told me that I was fine and just overthinking it a lot, causing my body and mind to be stressed and cause more problems 😭so sigh, We’re supposed to be going to check out my throat sometime soon, hopefully, wish me luck. Ugh 😭😕