I'm so jealous of everyone on here!

Everyone is posting cute bump pics, talking about how they are happy to feel kicks, and are just glowing! I'm over here with HG legit feel like I'm dying daily! I wish more then anything to be happy to be pregnant. I have no connection to this baby anymore and it terrifies me. I am sick daily, can no longer work, and the 5 nausea meds I take daily are only helping maybe 2 days a week. I have to depend on everyone around me for everything and I feel so useless 😭