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Sooo I’m confused... & I’m afraid to take a pregnancy test. So me and my boyfriend has been TTC for about 5 months then had an early miscarriage in September...this month my period was a little weird it came on 3 days early and it’s usually on time...then it was heavy one day, very light brown spotting the next, then completely gone the very next day. I’m afraid to take a test because negatives really break my heart. So I just try to wait for pregnancy symptoms...I’m very in tune with my body so I know when I’m not feeling like myself. BUT WHAT SHOULD I DOOO?