Seeking guidance ?

I’m hoping someone can help point me in the right direction here...

Growing up we never talked much about god or anything so it wasn’t something I ever thought of.

My grandma passed away last March, she was a Christian but never pushed it onto us.. ever since she passed I can’t help but to think about religion/god...

I’m at the point where I’m unsure if I believe or not. Part of me does but I don’t feel educated enough?