Please no harsh comments, I just need advice. Going through divorce is so emotionally draining especially while pregnant . And my soon to be ex husband is nice one second and then very mean the next. He has begged me to reconsider and goes to counseling. However, he did this the last time I found him cheating and decided to forgive him. He just got better at hiding it. When I tell him there is no trust and that our marriage is already dead because of his choices of cheating and lying he continues to say that my actions are not of God and that God is disappointed in me because I am divorcing him. It’s so hard hearing all these things and still trying to stay strong. Also I am pregnant with his child and will be due in March. I am terrified of having to share my son as my soon to be ex husband is fighting for 50/50 custody the first week he is born and saying that I Will have to pump for him if I want my son breast feed. I live in California and because it’s a no fault state and they tend to favor the fathers I’m so nervous about what’s going to happen. I want him to be apart of my sons life but I just don’t see how he could take a newborn away right away. The thought of sharing my baby is so hard to accept. I don’t know how to handle the emotions. Anyone go through something similar?