I just feel like I can fight anymore...

So from my first post, I mention a guy that had a crush on me and was getting a little too generous with the stuff he was sending me( I love you) or he was watching me wake up(on bitmoji) well I told him I wanted to wait and see how I’d start to feel, and in the end I was hoping for it to all work out but I seriously had to go and ask when and why he started to have feelings, and this is the conversation

Keep in mind we are in with grade and I wanted to wait till high school, but he and I were best friends when he sent me the third message it just completely shattered me, it made me feel so useless, so insecure, it made me feel like I wasn’t good enough to be liked for me, and honestly it made him worse than most guys that are in my school, we were best friends but he thought that I was so desperate for a guy to come along my way and I would jump at the first chance I got, I’m not shallow and I’ve never actually dated anyone, just had crushes, but I blew up on him and now I don’t know what to do, I just kind of want to lay in my bed all day and never get out...cause now he’s gonna tell it the other way around and say that I was the one that liked him, God I Freaking Hate My Life