12dpo, should I test? Don’t want more disappointment.

Erica

I’m trying not to get my hopes up about AF not coming. According to 1 app, AF is due on the 20th. Another app, it was due today, and on Glow it’s due tomorrow. They are all tracked and managed the same so I’m not sure why there are so many discrepancies? I am 12dpo and PMS symptoms are here right now minus the spotting I normally have between 2-3 days before my flow gets heavy. I’m not sure what to think and my one app is telling me to do a pregnancy test but I really feel like it’s going to come so I don’t want to a) get my hopes up and b) have a negative pregnancy test. So I guess I’ll just sit here and drive myself crazy and wait. Ugh. I’m so sorry. Sometimes I feel like I should just get a dog and just be happy with that instead of kids. My sister says we are “fertile” women, my mom says the same but I don’t feel like I am. Maybe I’m the black sheep and I’m not.