We made it 9 weeks and 3 days....after trying for almost 2 years I almost didn't believe the pregnancy test....my husband and I were so extremely happy to find out about you....we sent your grandparents to be a wonderful onsie announcement for Christmas....the entire family was so over joyed to be welcoming you into our hearts....you are the best thing thats happened to us....the one thing we waited so long for mom and dad prayed for you to be in our lives almost daily.....I just can not come to terms that we will never meet you...my heart is breaking ive never felt such a pain or hopeless Ness.....dad and i went to our first pregnancy appointmet at 9 weeks and 3 days the exam went great everything was perfect....until I asked if we could see your heart beat early since dad wont be able to make it to many office visits....we waited and waited for an ultrasound we finally got back and as the tech was scanning i could see the worry and disappointment in her face....we got a trans ultra sound to be sire you were ok after all the poking she turns the screen to us and i see the sac and the planceta forming but you were no where to be found....my sweet sweet baby that if been waiting for was no there....9 weeks and 3 days I felt like I was bonding and falling more and more in love with you just to be told you were never there/formed ....my body still thinking I'm pregnant held on to the sac and grew and grew with out you inside.....finding out on Friday that I had no baby inside killed me and then to find out if need sugury first thing Saturday morning was one of the most traumatic things your dad and I have had to face together....just like that my world was crushed....I dont know how to heal i dont know how to coope all i know is we love you with all our heart and wanted nothing more then to be your parents....we will forever miss you and never forget out first child/pregnancy....the thought of having a rainbow baby breaks my heart I know I want to try again soon but I just don't know if I can....just know that we love you my sweet baby.