Blighted ovum and chemical

Trish • My name is Trish🩷 and my hubby is Justin🩵 and we have been TTC baby👶🏻 #1 for 11 yrs. We are huge geeks🎮💻. We are waiting anxiously for our rainbow🌈👶🏻 baby.
I've miscarried twice. The first time baby stopped growing at 5 weeks and the second was a chemical. It's been really hard ttc because I want our rainbow baby. We have been ttc for 2 yrs now and nothing has really come about. How have you handled your loss?