ppd? or bad mom

So you’re not a horrible person. Example: my second is 2 months old. He has become colicky, is teething, and has a cold (so fun times). He doesn’t sleep nearly as often or as well as he should these days and is ALWAYS crying it seems - and nothing seems to soothe him. I ended up placing him on the bed at 2am last night, in tears myself, after spending 30 minutes trying to soothe a screaming baby to no avail. I am sleep deprived (and also have an almost 2 year old), anxious, and simply want my baby to be happy. I wanted to scream at him (I didn’t), even shake him (definitely didn’t do that). These thoughts ran through my head and very quickly I knew I myself needed a break. I set him down and walked away. I shut the door so I could have a moment to bring peace back to my mind. It only took a minute or two for me to relax enough that I could carry on for a short time... but again, anxiety hit me hard. My husband had to take over because at this point I was crying and repeating “I can’t do this...” over and over. It could be PPD. Could be you are simply exhausted. Taking care of kids is HARD work. Do not be afraid to call your doctor, really. A healthy and happy mommy means a happy baby and a happy husband.