When is it going to be my turn..

A little back story.

My husband and I have been TTC for about 18 months. We stopped for a couple months to see if that would help and It just still hasn’t happened for us yet. We’re both healthy and I’ve done everything I know to do and it just hasn’t happened. So every month when were waiting for those two lines to pop up and we get just the one it’s pretty devastating (as most of you know).

Well one of our good friends just recently came out saying their pregnant with their second child... I’m happy for them truly I just don’t understand how in the same amount of time we’ve been trying for 1 they now have 2.

I just am so ready for us to be parents and to share our love with a child I don’t understand why it hasn’t happened. Now here I am waiting for my period this month logging all my bbt and CM day in and day out hoping and praying this is our month..

I just need a bit of encouragement because my husband doesn’t truly understand what this feels like.

I feel like a failure.