I know but still unsure

Maria • Love. I am a mother first💯
Ok I got a tubal reversal done after having three children then remaired and we been trying and lost twins and I'm high risk pregnant and I have not gone to a doctor because I'm scared and all pregnant test are positive but faint I hope my hcg levels aren't dropping but go up up up I we really want a healthy baby according to this app I'm 5wks 2 days and I tested before my period on dollar tree test and positive test then a week before my period due a gush of blood  and no clots then I bled for a few days would stop when I lay down bed rest now no blood oh and I test again and positive test light then blood stopped mild cramps but nothing like a mc am I loosing my mind