Hi guys just need to vent. I've been married to my hubby 3 years, but this last 2 years have been so so hard. We've been made homeless, been made redundant, lived literally hand to mouth, I nearly died twice and have had to have 60 weeks bed bound, had an ectopic pregnancy, a miscarriage, I've had 4 major operations and a huge fall out with hubby's family after he found out his Dad isn't his Dad, and his Mum (who is evil) had lied and made his real Dad stay away. That's just to name a few.

We've are blessed with a 2 and a half year old son, what keeps us going... But I feel like it is the really only thing keeping us going. We've been rocky since he was born, as hubby's Dad stuff came out, and hubby just went down hill and got baby blues, went therapy fixed it healed with his family. Then I got sick it started as an ectopic, but it went majorly wrong thanks to the hospital and his Mum started again but this time on me while I was literally still in the hospital unable to even wash myself or hold my baby, while mourning losing a baby. We had a big fall out, while this was going on hubby got made redundant, and spent all our savings. He avoided me the whole time so me and my son had to live with my Mum when I finally got out of hospital, but after all those 3 ops had to go to my mum's. It all came out as I just hit rock bottom, I had his sister calling threating me, I couldn't look after my son or even myself, I lost a baby and my husband had just vanished.

My last op number 4 was about 4 months ago. I'm back to myself now and though we was could get back to being a married couples. We just went out for our first date night by ourselves since our son, and he literally said the bare minimum the whole night. My mum took us on holiday and I literally had to Keep reminding him to smile, and every day out he ruins. I've tried being nice to him, I've tried to be blunt, but he only seems to care when I hit rock bottom, and that's normally bed time, and only because he wants something else.

I got him to go to therapy and he says it helped, but I don't see it. I try so hard to do the little things, dinner on table as soon as he's home, buying his favourite bits, making sure I always ask about his day, our date night going to a movie he likes and food places he likes, but I don't get anything back, untill I just give up trying. His excuse for not talking to me in the restaurant was he was thinking about the film. Now we're home and I've told him he's ruined our night he's trying to be all lovey dovey to get me in bed.

I don't know what to do! I'm not needy I just wanted one night out after 2 and a half years of rubbish. I talk and talk and talk about it but he says I moan to much. I know he works hard 5-6 days a week, so arranged him to go driving range while I food shopped hoping it would put him in a good mood for tonight, but guess not. I'm so lost what to do, I just keep thinking is he just with me for the baby and because we're Christians. I literally have one day a week with him and it's always the day I feels like the worst day of the week. I just keep lowering my expectations. I don't want romance or passion I just want a husband who listens and cares. I keep praying on it, but now I'm just starting to hate him. I hate him touching me, and he's been doing overtime at work lately and I'm just enjoying being at home not on egg shells. I know it's not healthy for me to feel like this but I don't know how to fix it. Anyone who can offer any help be much appreciated x