I feel stupid going to my mom for pain now

I have nerve pain and it has flared up and I’m miserable. When this happens I go to my mom and I have her rub my back because it’s the only thing that helps. She used to be a physical therapist. I stopped taking pain medication because it just makes me sick. I think no matter how old I get I will always go to my mom for this. She has a boyfriend now who is a war vet. This man has been shot, stabbed, blown up and his whole body pretty much consists of metal rods and screws. The man literally has a battery pack or something along those lines in his back so shock his muscles to give relief. He’s held together with metal and he’s definitely had his fair share of chronic pain. I have seen him on his bad days unable to move and just laying in bed. I feel stupid and like my pain is very minor compared to what he deals with. So I don’t go and talk to my mom about my pain in his presence.

He’s never said anything to make me feel this way. And I’m wondering if It makes sense that I feel this way? I’ve avoided my moms house recently because of this just because I’m in pain. Is it a natural thing do you think? It feels wrong to complain of something that someone else has much worse.