So my mom passed away Jan 6. Today we had her celebration of life and I thought I’d be ok but I’m not even close. It didn’t hit me until I got home and put my oldest to bed. I just bawled and haven’t stopped. My anxiety and depression are off the charts. I don’t know how to grieve her loss since we weren’t close until I had kids. We just weren’t close for many reasons. I feel like she bailed on us and we’re supposed to feel different than we do. I dunno I think I’m broken now