Heartbroken and Upset

I had my daughter at 25 weeks due to severe pre-eclampsia. My protein was 6,000 and I had severe headaches, and floaters in my eye with high blood pressure of 220/120.

We spent 116 days in the NICU where she fought everyday! She was born weighing 14.4 ounces and she now weighs 15lbs!

We celebrated her turning 1 years old on January 19th, 2019. I had just found out I was pregnant January 12th, 2019 with our second child! We were excited but very nervous because of this last pregnancy.

The evening of my daughters birthday, I was 4 weeks and 4 days along, I started spotting. Figured nothing of it, even though I was still nervous. I heard it’s common and my friend told me it could be my uterus just expanding. The bleeding started to slowly increase.. and then I started to get concerned and told my fiancé. The next morning I decided to call my doctor because I was now bleeding like my period but didn’t have clots. Just heavy dark red bleeding. The on call doctor told me to wait and call to get seen the next day unless I’m bleeding too much and my life is in danger then go to the ER.

I ended up going to the ER yesterday, because my fiancé uses my car for work, he just started a job, and it’s RSV season and it’s very dangerous to preemies. So I decided to get seen yesterday. I went in and waited and waited. They took my blood.. then they finally called me back for an ultrasound. I asked the tech if I could use the bathroom before doing the vaginal ultrasound because I was bleeding. I went and I had this huge clot just come out. And I knew that it was the baby and the placenta. So when the doctor told me they saw nothing on the ultrasound, i knew.

What was shocking was that the doctor went to tell me that I was never pregnant. That my urine and blood came back negative. I asked what the number was and she said 5. In my head I’m like “duh, my levels dropped you idiot.” I went to tell her that I was pregnant and I had tests to confirm that. She replied “well I’d get my money back for them.” I said “well I had 3 different types of tests which were all positive. I had 3 First Response Early Response, 3 clearblue digital tests saying “pregnant”, and a blue dye clearblue test.” She then made a face and said “you’re last period was December 19th? I replied.. yes. Doctor says “Well then you wouldn’t have been pregnant because you wouldn’t have ovulated till mid January and there is no way that you found out that early..” stunned and starting to get angry.. I said “I had my period the 19-22nd and then I ovulated the 31st of December into the 1st of January.. which is when we tried. My cycle is a 26 day cycle because I track my periods.. and I tested 11DPO and 12DPO, 2 days before my missed period and got a positive early response test but negative digital.. I had to test 2 days later to get a positive digital.. in which I did. I’m 7 days past my period.. and this is me miscarrying..” she said, well your tests were negative.. so this is your period.

So I just told her to leave and told the nurse after they made me wait for 20 minutes, to take this IV out of my arm so I can leave.

I called my doctor and because I didn’t go in for confirmation they don’t know either and go by what the notes from ER said.

So I am sadly heartbroken.. crying.. and upset that all that was said to me.. and trying to make me look crazy.