MY SECRET ADDICTION

I've been secretly addicted to benadryl. Yes it's over the counter med. But don't mean it's harmless. I've been going thru so much lately. Looking for something to make me forget the pain I feel since the loss of my pregnancy in 2016. I don't take the recommended dosage. I take 11 of the 25 mg pills. It keeps my depression numb for a while. Since 2016 I've been hooked on them and take a total of 33 pills in one day. I even bought the 600 pill bottle. Nobody suspects anything because I keep it good under raps. Not even my husband knows. I just realized that I'm hooked. It's so hard to stop taking them. Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did you resolve it.

I post anonymously because I'm ashamed. Any advice?