I checked in last night (Jan 20) at 8:00 p.m. I was feeling mild contractions since Thursday night but nothing crazy. Then I woke yesterday morning feeling more crampy and more and more but I could handle it at that point with lots of breathing. So I was very hopeful baby was coming naturally in time before they even induced me, but I waited anyways till check in time. By then contractions had gotten more intense but still bearable, 5-6 min apart lasting 40sec. My mom picked us up and we went in for my scheduled induction, my room was ready thank God. They did the cervix check and I was still at 1.5 cm but 50% effaced, so they hooked the IV for pitocin but a low dose. WOW after that it was PAINFUL AF ! I was moaning for two hours straight until I couldn't no more and I was exhausted at 2:30 a.m the anesthesiologist came to save my ass with epidural 😂😂 I felt instant relief 😀 and I even had a good nap. After 2-3 hours I made progress and was 3 cm and fully effaced 🙌 with a very bulgy bag meaning that my water is about to break. My babygirl is coming!!! It's almost 6 a.m and anxiously waiting to feel the urge to push her out. I couldn't wait to tell you even if she isn't born yet but soon today we will be skin to skin 💓 I'll keep you updated...😘😘

UPDATE GIRLS! : So girls first is all I want to be clear about something, we mothers no matter how we give or decide to give birth we are such brave and strong human beings 🙌

By midday I had dilated to 4cm but my baby was still high meaning she hadn't dropped too much. My contractions were getting closer and stronger but of course I couldn't feel the pain thanks to the epidural 🙌 My mom, her husband and my hubby were all very anxious/excited about the news and exhausted as well. Then in the afternoon I was feeling very uncomfortable because kept laying on my left side on the hospital bed and didn't moved at all because I was so tired😫 so my epidural only affected my left side leaving my right side in pain😥 and too make things worse the contractions were insanely painful by that time cause I was induced with pitocin. Thank God my nurse was very helpful and sweet and she helped change positions everytime as I was completely numb on my left side, I couldn't move my leg at all and I was hooked to a lot of stuff, the pitocin, the epidural, the Foley catheter and the heart monitor belt. Fuck! I was so cranky and didn't want no one to talk to me or touch me. By 1:00 p.m my nurse checked me and I progressed to 8cm 🙏 so fast! I was exhausted but so excited, It was a matter of time till I got to push my baby girl. I was dreaming of this moment, to have my baby vaginally but girls...God had other plans for me and made myself surrender completely.

When I reached 10cm and it was time to push my baby was malpositioned meaning head facing towards my belly, with his back facing my back, a really unfavorable position for a vaginal birth. To make things worse my blood pressure was rising to the clouds and I tested positive for preclampsia 😥 and babygirls heart beat was slowly dropping making me hysterical 😭 because I was told to lay on my left side, the part of my body not affected by the epidural 😫 Fuck! I had to breath through contractions anyways and the worse is that I pushed for almost 4 hours! Yes girls, four freaking hours! And baby stayed in the same spot the whole time, my sweet nurse tried everything, she made me push laterally with a peanut ball and pulling from a special tube with towels on it to support my pushings and still nothing! Babygirl was not descending through the canal, and I was so stressed, wore out and I was having spotty visions and was extenuated. I heard them talking about an imminent C-section because evidently I was not going to push forever and my water had broken hours ago already and baby was at risk, also me. I looked at my husband defeated, he looked at me like telling me to keep trying and to be patience because he was very against a C-section and so was I. But after trying and trying and trying there was nothing we could do. It was not under our control or power, only God knows exactly at what time and day his children are to be born 🙏 we can't rush it or make plans ahead of his time, we cannot rush nature and pretend we have control over things. This happens often so we can surrender and let things be what they are. So I said to the nurses without feeling less of a mother or less of a warrior, let it be a C-section 🙌 My body is exhausted! I was feeling so drained😥😫 so we went in for surgery at 9:20p.m.

I've never had surgery in my life and never thought I was going to be the one having a C-section specially after dilating to 10cm and being a very active girl my whole life. Well, I gotta say it was an intense experience and I survived. Thank God our bodies are capable of healing, regenerating and strong enough to bear such challenges in life. They numbed, pulled and tugged my belly so strongly I closed my eyes, breathed once again just like I did when I was pushing insanely hard. Then..I heard the most precious melody, the sound of my sweet angel crying and everything became beautiful in this world and there was nothing to regret, to rant or be angry about. Rather I felt victorious, immensely in love with this precious creature. 💗 I saw good, I saw God's grace and blessing. I was being illuminated and I surrendered to my sweet girl whom I named Roma 💓

Born January 21th at 10:23p.m

Weighed 6lb 14 oz