I don’t want to hear it
I don’t want to hear “you’re still young, you have plenty of time”. I don’t want to hear “stop trying, it happens when you stop trying”. I don’t want to hear “maybe it just needed to be the right person” (which I do agree with but I have a point). I don’t want to hear “it’ll happen when it’s meant to happen” (which I also see truth in). However, most of all, i do not want to hear “it’s ok”, because to me, it isn’t. It isn’t ok that I have wanted to be a mother since forever and I have not been able to conceive. It hurts that no matter what I do it isn’t happening. It hurts that everyone around me gets pregnant and has babies but while I am happy for them it hurts me because I think to myself “why not me?” It kills me to think that I may not be able to conceive, carry and give birth to my own flesh and blood child. It scares me to think how I will never be able to afford the surgery I need for endometriosis that could get the disease out and maybe allow me to get pregnant. Lord knows I’ll never be able to afford
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so there’s that fear as well. What if I can never have a baby of my own. Of course i would look into adoption (if I can afford it) and I have a beautiful little “step daughter” with my love but I’m sure anyone who knows how this feels knows what I mean when I say my heart hurts thinking I’ll never be able to have a baby with the man I love. It just hurts. My heart goes out to everyone else going through this. Sometimes we just need a sympathetic ear and a shoulder to cry on, not someone who is going to say “don’t be so negative” because sometimes, we just don’t want to hear it.
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