First time but not first time🤦🏽‍♀️

Hey y’all, I just really need some advice. So there’s this guy I’ve know for like two years now and he’s the first person in a long time I’ve just instantly clicked with and have so much in common with etc etc, we became best friends he was there for me while I was in a bad relationship and he was always there to comfort me in my down times and all and when I went through a break up he was there the whole time and the one day he got really upset and I knew something was bothering him so I made it clear to him that he could talk to me about anything and me being there for him then he confessed to having feelings for me the more and more we talked feelings started to progress on both sides he always compliments me cheers me up when I’m down deals with my moods swings when it’s that time of month he’s an absolute diamond like really, really. Anyway we started dating about 5months ago but we haven’t had sex yet. I don’t know why but I literally feel like a virgin with him I know sex isn’t like how it is in movies but I Linda want it to be special but I don’t want to force it don’t get me wrong he’s ready for it and I think I am but I don’t know it feels different with him then it did anyone else I dated it’s kinda hard to explain and how things are with him I feel like he’s my one like he’s the one🤭 I thought I was In love before but to be honest now that I think about it I’m pretty sure it was just lust I feel real L.O.V.E with my austin♥️