I feel like I’m changing and I don’t like how I am changing... I’m getting more rude and mean and I’m losing my temper a lot. I suffer from major depressive disorder and have mood swings but they have been more frequent. I feel like I’m going to scare away everyone that actually care for me. I feel like it’s Bc of the ppl that are in my class, I’m surrounded by “rude” and “unhappy” ppl and I feel as though it’s starting to get to me. I don’t usually wear my feelings on my sleeves but now everyone notices my anger, sadness, etc. Usually things ppl say doesn’t really get to me but now it is... yes I’m a teenager, yes I’m hormonal, yes I’m trying to “find myself” but the person I’m finding I don’t like at all. I wasn’t always like this, but ig things are changing. I’ve been hurt by plenty ppl and betrayed and I deal with pain by shutting ppl out and isolating myself... but this isolation is causing me more anger and aggravation. I seriously don’t know how I’m going to deal with this situation. I have my best friends and boyfriend supporting me, understanding that I’m at a “low”, but I always feel as though they’ll get tired of dealing with me. Although they reassure me frequently. Sometimes I feel annoying Bc I’m always apologizing but I can’t help it. And I don’t really like talking about my feelings to others, I feel as though my emotions bring stress and I don’t like causing stress I enjoy bringing relief. I actually don’t know where I was going with this, but I just had to let it out. I just need a reply. Not pity. Not advice. Just someone to really TRULY understand me not pretending they do. If you know my “pain” say something please