Feeling Bad

Have you ever done anything out of spite, and then regret it? Will I have and it started with a good friend which is now my daughter father. A few years back we had sex one time and I got pregnant. when I told him I was pregnant me and him both agreed that we did not want a baby by each! I asked for abortion money, at the time I could not afford to pay for it myself and he didn’t have the money for one. Needless to say our baby is 3 years old now almost 4. Now the father of my child is a bum ass dad I must admit! (He has 4 other kids) But when it came to our baby we fell out bad he wasn’t there through out my pregnancy at all. Which was so depressing for me. I took care of our baby for 2 1/2 years by myself. So out of spite I put him on child support and honestly it was NEVER ABOUT THE MONEY! It was about TIME. Me and my daughter father got back in contact with each other September 2018 he text me out the blue and apologized to me for what he did and he had to realize that because the falling out we had should never caused home to miss out on his daughter life. Since then he man up, and start spending time with her. He gets her when ever I need some me time! I’m regretting that I put him on child support cause I can’t take him off. Would you feel bad if you was in this situation??