I don’t think I’m being too...

I’ll keep the drama extremely short here because the history goes back 10 years so, to keep it in short I’ve been married to my husband for 5 years.

However, during the 10 years together it seems as though his family never really considered me family. I mean idk... I just feel like our children aren’t as included as the other grandchildren are.

The only time they spend time with them is if I make a big deal about it and it doesn’t feel genuine when that happens. I’d like to be more apart of his family but today, I finally gave up. It really is a long story but ultimately I can’t make anyone like or love me and my children. Despite me being the first wife and genuinely having this mans heart his family has just never treated us as family and today, I heard his mom tell his other child’s mother (he has a son from a previous relationship who’s 15) that she was her daughter from another mother. It didn’t break my heart or anything but just made me realize they’re not my family no matter how hard I try to include them and ourselves together.

I’ve been here just as long as the other girl but I guess I understand :/ nobody ever really replaces the first grandchild and his or her mom. It just sucks coming in last.... I don’t think I’m being too sensitive. I think it was more of an epiphany. The problem with all this is, is because I do love them (and I’m one of those suckers who love those who don’t love me back it’s a terrible trait to have) I haven’t gotten rid of them from my life. But I so badly want to. However, I know I’ll hurt more than them.