I NEED HELPšŸ˜©!!! Give me advice please

Yduj

Okay so I let my mind take over me COMPLETELY. Ik this is a bad thing, but I have a boyfriend that my mom doesnā€™t know about, and when I sneak to see him itā€™s like I feel so sick. I literally throw up and I canā€™t eat the WHOLE time and it isnā€™t just with him. This is with every guy Iā€™ve been with. After I throw up I feel better but if I stay the night with him I wake up at like 5am and throw up and back to feeling sick again. I just want to feel normal and be a normal teen who sneaks off and enjoy her teen years . I am so tired of this. I need help. I love him and I want to spend more time with him but I donā€™t as much because of how I start puking. Any advice? Please helpšŸ˜©. Is there anything I could take or do? Any tips? I donā€™t want him to think Iā€™m weird.

**I donā€™t want to hear ā€œdonā€™t sneak aroundā€ I want help!**

**Also Iā€™ve went to the doctor and they prescribed me hydrozine and it doesnā€™t work at all. Iā€™m crying for helpšŸ˜©**