I am currently living with my ex fiancé (he is the father of my youngest child). All together, together for 5.5 years. He’s been sleeping on the couch for some time and I’m moving out at the end of March. He was seeing someone for a while and i have been also. For our entire relationship he would think it was ok to “wake me up to sex”. At first i thought i was ok with it, but realized quickly that i was not. I voiced my feelings. He wasn’t happy about it. And he is the type that wants it everyday, even if i didn’t want to. So for a long time i would have sex with him so avoid a fight. Even though i really didn’t want to. Well. Since we’ve separated (more often), he’s been waiting till I’m asleep and either trying to have sex with me or touching me while I’m sleeping so he can get off. I’m usually a very heavy sleeper. So who knows how much it actually happened without my knowledge. I know it happened before we split, and i told him I wasn’t ok with it then. And I’m for sure not ok with it now. This happens pretty much every night. Most nights i push him away and he stops and i can go back to sleep. But not tonight. He thinks i have no idea what he’s doing every night. But i do. And i don’t say anything. Even though i want to. I want to tell him “i fucking know every damn time you touch me without my permission.” And i can’t bring myself to say it. But I’m at the point now where i don’t even want to go back to sleep because I’m afraid he will come back in here and try again. Just needed to get that out somewhere. To someone.