I think I’m out

Jessica • 2 years of trying... BFP for baby number 1 9•30•19 👶❤️ Little girl born 5•8•20

After I had a frer that had a faint pink line, I think it was a false positive because I haven’t gotten a bfp. AF was supposed to arrive yesterday but was a no show so I know I’m not out but I just think if it were positive it would have really shown by now. I tried a blue dye, a frer and a cheapie. I think I see something on one test, and then not the other. It’s a stupid cycle. Why does ttc have to be so hard for women that reaaaaaaallly want to be a mom? I would give anything at this point 😫

Any positive vibes are appreciated.