15dpo

I'm 15 days post ovulation and I'm not pregnant. Again. And while I know realistically that it can take some time ... I can't help but feel so sad. I begin to wonder or maybe realize that this whole process can have a toll on someone emotionally and mentally.  We all know the nervousness or excitement that comes behind those long days after ovulation every month waiting to test and see.... But when I reach that day every month that I end up testing negative I get depressed.  I hate feeling this way. And I never thought TTC would be so hard on me. It's supposed to be fun and exciting... But I end up feeling just discouraged and afraid with those "what if"s. I do believe that everything happens for a reason and not all of it is in my hands. A lot of it isn't.  But I need to find a way to cope better when I get those negatives. :(