So we had an ultrasound about 10 days ago and we discovered something was really wrong with the baby. It was a 14mm hygroma, They told us the odds were slim, but scheduled us for an anatomy scan and amino for today. Yesterday they called me and said my blood work came back really low risk for chromosomal abnormalities so I was a little hopeful. My husband was just hopeful. As soon as they started the scan today I knew that she was already gone. She died a couple of days after they noticed the problem. I thought I had prepared myself, but nothing prepares you for this. I watched my husband sob and I just feel like the out of control. There is nothing I can do. Since we got the news that something was wrong I couldn’t eat or sleep, I lost 10pounds and I just feel so overwhelmed. I would have been close to 16 weeks today. I thought I was in the safe zone but now I know there isn’t one. We really want a second child, but I’m so scared to try again. We are blessed to have had one child so maybe we are asking too much. My head is spinning.

We only found out a couple of hours ago and I’m scheduled for a D&C tomorrow morning. I know she’s gone but it feels like they are taking her from me. I don’t want to go but I know I need to.

When does this overwhelming sadness go away?