I want to try again :(

I had a MC almost 4 weeks ago. I had bloodwork yesterday to see where my HCG levels were and they were at 113. I’m pretty bummed because my doctor told me I could try for another as soon as my levels reach 0, so I’m just sad that they are so far off :( I’m just ready to be done with this. This loss has been apart of my life for 8 weeks now (I found out the baby didn’t have a heartbeat 4 weeks before my body miscarried). I’m just ready to move on. Just needed to vent, I guess