So I've been with my SO for almost 6 years and I was on anti depressants before I even met him I've fought depression for almost 9 years now when I got with him he convinced me bc he was there for me I didnt need them and for a while yeah I didn't think I did but as time moved forward I've began to feel hopeless like I felt when I first started them I haven't been on them in 2 years but before I stopped them I was also on medication to help me sleep and anxiety medication while he was in basic training once he came home he was mad I got put on medication i had multiple talks with my dr avout it before i decided to go on them so I didnt just use him going to basic as an excuse to go on medication like he claims my SO and I have a son together i love my son more than life its self i would honestly do anything for him. I tried talking to my SO about how I've been feeling and the fact i dont sleep more than 2 or 3 hours a night. And he just goes "do you want a divorce?" Or "dont I make you happy" and he does for the most part since my son was born he hasmt helped much at all I get I was breast feeding so nightly feeding was on me which was fine i dont sleep anyway but it got to the point if I finally was able to take a nap and actually sleep hed wake me up bc he was playing a video game and our son needed changed. He doesnt change diapers now that I'm not breast feeding and hes been switched to formula my SO doesnt make bottles at all if I ask him to he complains like I'm asking him to do something that's super hard and complicated. I started working 2 nights a week only 4 hr shifts so far but I asked if he could give our son a bath he said yes and then when i came home my son was in the same diaper same clothes they were wet with drool and covered in puffs and baby food and he was screaming laying in his crib! I felt horrible bc I thought I could trust his father to do what he needed to I dread going to work now and I dont want to quit my job. I feel trapped in my own house o do everything we have two dogs I feed water bathe and let them out all by myself I feed my son bathe him make sure hes in clean clothes and happy I do all the cleaning in the house I do all the cooking (my SO complains about what I cook all the time hes a very picky eater he has like 3 meals he loves and only wants them it's sad bc I try to find yummy healthy meals but he hates everything I cook..) I have to make sure his uniform is washed and laid out for him for when he goes to work like everything has to be laid out or hes mad the entire day I put his clothes away along with my sons and my own I have all to have the house clean at all times or he loses his mind and tells me I dont work like he does I get hes in the military and i respect the military but most of the time his job is him checking IDs all day or sitting in a patrol car nothing happens at this base. He says his job is stressing which yeah I'm sure it is but he doesnt even spend time with me or his son and our son lights up when he comes home from work he holds him for maybe 5 min then goes I have a head ache can you take him and if I say I need to finish laundry he gets mad and yells at me bc he diesnt feel good.. I'm to the point I'm tired of being a maid in my own home and I'm just done with him all together he tells me all the time If I leave he will win full custody bc I don't have a good paying job like him I dont have a steady income like him or a car or a house like him I left everything behind when I moved out of state with him I have 3 jobs lined up back home just waiting for my return my step dad has a car in his shop hes been working on for me it was suppose to be a birthday present bc my jeep broke down but he didnt finish fixing it in time I have three places I can stay until I save enough for my own place but I'm scared her right and a judge will look at us and say he gets full custody I dont know what to do I want out but my fear is crippling I just want to feel okay again I know my worth and I know theres got to be someone out there who is going to look at me and see more than a stay at home mom I know I'm more than a mom. I'm tired of crying every day and dreading when he comes home from work.. I just need advice on what I should do..