I feel like such a horrible, no good mom. I have been trying to quit smoking, I really have. At 20 weeks and then at 32 weeks but I’m a failure. This pregnancy has been so so hard and marijuana has helped me everyday. With only a month left I am pretty much guaranteed to test positive if they test me at the hospital. I know that if I test positive cps will be involved. I can handle that, hopefully, but if they try to take away my son I won’t be able to live. I’m so scared at this point. I really don’t want to loose him but I can’t stop smoking.