The wait 🙄😫

I bled from the 8th-19th. On the 14th I found out I was pregnant && on the 15th I miscarried (I couldn’t have been more than 4 weeks). As of Saturday my HCG level was at 82 (it’s lowest) but I need to get it taken again on the 30th to make sure its back at zero. I have an appointment for the 28th with my gyno. I spoke wit a nurse on the phone yesterday...she said no sex till my level is back at 0 && to wait 2 cycles before trying again. I just don’t want to wait at all 😭😭😭😭😭😭 Hubby && I have never even used condoms && are VERY eager to try again 😫 I’m just feelin so greatly defeated 😔😔😔😔