I’ve been trying to keep a tough face on over the last couple days, but today I couldn’t keep it together. I’ve ended a relationship that should’ve been over a long time ago!! I just held on because I felt like I couldn’t get any one else. Along with the connection we had!! Over the last few months, things been HORRIBLE. I never thought my relationship would be like this, I pictured forever with him. A family with him, we tried for months to get pregnant. The lifestyle that he wants to live will bring me down and I can lose everything I have!! Shit I’ve already lost so much because of him. I just feel so foolish because I believed him when he said he loved me!! My heart is broken because the person I loved has treated me so horribly, talked to me so horrible. Moving on is a little difficult then I thought!! I have good days and bad!! And let me tell you today was a bad day I feel so low, so ugly and worthless because of him. I just wanted to cry my eyes out!! Hell I did cry my eyes out today. This very moment I want to cry!! Everyone is telling me to move on and I’ll be okay!! And it’s like there is so much damage. where or how do I pick up the pieces. I feel like I’m going to have a mental breakdown!! I’m just thankful that I don’t have kids by him! As today moved on and I try to hold myself together from crying, the weirdest thing happened!! All these guys hitting on me while I’m at work. Telling me I’m beautiful, I have a beautiful smile and even asking me out on a dates!! It really made me feel good about about myself because I haven’t heard that in along time it seemed like!! I really need to hear that!! I still don’t feel the best about myself